Sunday, May 06, 2007
Well I finally got some medicine last night. It has been one long week of sinus everything. I have tried to tough it out but at last my brain kicked in and I got a doctor to give me some real help. Needless to say I am feeling better already. It has been a long hard week. Rain, rain, and more rain. I have felt once again that ache in my heart. When it is raining outside & you are stuck in bed without TV, distractions, or the ability to clean something your mind and heart begin to connect with the silence and begin to commune with God. I am thankful for this time. When I was on bed rest I feel like I wasted a lot of that precious time. Now I know four months is different than a week of a cold, but my heart has latched on to something precious. I am thankful I got time to reflect and listen. I had time to repent and stir up something deep in my heart. I just had time for God and I liked it. Now the important part is to find this time without having to be pushed into this time. To find Him in our moments of quiet. To discipline our hearts to be positioned before Him. He gives us this time. We must choose to enter into it. Now I like a clean house, and I am constantly doing mess control but this week my dishes piled up, and my house was out of control but my spirit came to life. My heart got cleaned out and for that I am excited.
"How priceless is your unfailing love! Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings. They feast in the abundance of your house. you give them drink from your river of delights. For with you is the fountain of life; in your light we see light." Psalm 36:7&9