Some days are smooth sailing. Others are not. This week has been sort of a monster. So after many broken promises I decided it would be the best week to show some pics of the new place. After all its really about being honest & real as a mom isn't it?
My house has been a constant work in progress. My heart has been too. I am allowing my worth to come by His ways of thinking of me, not the success of the day. I am a successful mom not because I get the meals made, the laundry done, or even by how well my child obeyed in Walmart. I am a successful mom by the amount of value that the Lord sees in me & my weakness. I am a successful mom by the amount of meekness produced through this process called mothering. I am a successful mom according to His love poured over me unto my children. It is not the success of the day's list. It is the measurement of eternal character produced. So...
if your day or week has looked like mine has (eye infections, laundry piles, papers piled up, toys broken, meals not cooked, dmv again, etc. etc.) -
have a great hope. He rejoices over you with singing. He loves the broken attempts to love him in and out a hard mothering day.
Yesterday I was trying to put a sweater at the top of my closet. I was so flustered I threw it up to the top and a bunch of clothes and stuff fell down. Out came a journal with just one page written on it. Exactly to the day one year ago in the hospital I had written down a treasure from heaven & again the Lord in his kindness revealed it to me and visited me again in my weakness. The note said...
"today I awoke in severe pain at 5am. As I woke myself up in tears I heard singing. I heard the voice of the Lord sing over me, "Do you know how much I love you?" Because His love and kind words were immediately so overwhelming I found my only response was that I began to sing to him "you are worthy. Your love over me is worth it all... you are worthy."
One year to the day. Incredible. God saw my physical pain one year ago and sang over me with his kindness and love. Yesterday he saw my emotional pain as I was wresting through motherhood & again he came to me in his kindness "do you know how much I love you?"
Powerful. His love over us surpasses all of our weakness, even in mothering.
He is worthy.